{God-sized Dreaming} Of Bumps and Bruises

{God-sized Dreaming} Of Bumps and Bruises

I’m covered in bruises. Literally. I usually sport black and blue marks up and down my thighs. I’m a high-energy, motivated person who likes to get things done. {I like to say I’m naturally caffeinated, but people have called me other things at times, perhaps not so kind.}

So, typically, I can’t be bothered to walk carefully enough to spare my legs the rough kiss of a chair edge or doorknob.  In fact, I broke my thumb a couple of years ago by spinning around in my daughter’s room {no doubt in a rush to do something} and catching the slim edge of her open door precisely on my outstretched thumb pad.

Yes, I hear your collective Ouch! and I appreciate the sympathy.

Just last night, after I’d already begun this post about my crash-happy ways, I smashed my pinkie toe into a corner of kitchen baseboard, hot on the pursuit of a big basket of laundry to hoist upstairs. {I realize a photo of the red lump on my toe would be more apt an illustration here today, but I’m sparing you with what I hope is a more pleasant alternative — a photo of the the lush garden outside the coffee shop where I’m working this morning.}

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Most days, I’m busy, at work bumping into the sharp corners of my life. If I encounter an obstacle, I bash into it straight on, thinking I can force my way through by sheer willpower and brute force.

And, so, while, being on the God-sized Dream Team has opened the door of my private little writing room into the vibrant outdoor tangle of friendship, opportunity, and inspiration — it’s also had me careening into rocks and getting tangled in vines:

  • Because connections and ideas have flourished precisely as time has tightened.
  • Because I can’t get away from the God-given confines of my life in this demanding season of caring for three young kids.
  • Because God calls me to be a stronger, healthier, and more whole person — spiritually, mentally, and physically — as well as pursue my God-sized dream, and these are all the hardest and best things I’ve ever tried to do.

I’m writing this post for the final linkup with Holley Gerth’s God-sized dreamers. We began, way back in January with weekly posts and linkups about our desires for more of what God has for us — our God-sized dreams. This is the check-in post, the one where I tell you how much I’ve learned, how far I’ve come, and where I am in regards to my God-sized dream.

In general terms, I described my dream this way, back in early January:

My God-sized dream is about the words. Written words and heart and faith. That’s where you’ll find me.

And, I still love that dream line, because it describes my overarching goal, no matter what specific form it might take. But, I know you want details, and I won’t disappoint. When I applied for Holley’s team back in late fall 2012, I chose two of many goals — start an Etsy shop and write a children’s picture book.

I did launch the Etsy shop back in late February, and while it’s been slow going getting sales, and I haven’t had as much time as I’d like to grow it, I love the idea of connecting with and inspiring others through God’s words and my photos. I’m so honored to know several of my prints now hang in the homes of friends and family {and, maybe, someday, will in those of strangers too}.

I began the children’s picture book — and I still believe in it — but I’ve come to realize it’s very hard, as an unknown author, to sell a picture book, especially when I’m not an illustrator as well.

So, I’m pursuing another project dear to my heart. It’s a topic I’ve felt strongly about for years, but that I’ve hid from, because it felt too big for me. With the help of a new friend and mentor, I’m dusting that project off and diving in: A few weeks ago, I launched the Spark Moms creativity series on the blog. I want to encourage women — especially moms with young kids — that they can pursue their God-given creativity in ways that will enrich their lives and the lives of others around them.

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As my time with Holley’s book launch team and my 99 other God-sized dream sisters draws to an official close, I am so grateful for the friendships, the lessons, and the journey. But, I’m also thinking of those hard things it’s had me knocking into, now more than ever.

I’m thinking that I can’t get around, or through, the things that get in my way, no matter how much I crash into them. As much as I bang my head against the fact that I rarely have a moment to myself from 7 am to 10 pm, it doesn’t go away. I just get lumps.

So, I hear God softly, gently, suggest a different route.

  • What if I walk around the obstacles, deliberately, slowly, taking in their measure, considering them?
  • What if I run a hand lovingly over them as I stroll by, saying: This is hard, and it’s in my way, but it’s here for a reason?
  • What if I run my thoughts — and prayers — over these impediments daily?

What has your time considering your own God-sized dream taught you? Are you where you imagined? Or have your goals evolved?

 This post is gladly shared with Holley Gerth’s God-sized Dreamers, Jen’s Soli Deo Gloria, and Laura’s Playdates with God.



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  1. I had a friend in middle/high school who called me Grace for many of the same bumping and bruising ways your described. I’m still like that. Again, not surprisingly, at this point, I can so relate to what you’re saying. And I’m so thankful our lives bumped into each other.
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  2. I absolutely love your new/old/revised God-sized dream – about creativity and moms – and have from the moment I heard it! It’s needed, and who better to bring this idea to them than you? : )
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  3. I adore you! And I’m so thankful this GSDT connected us! I’m here cheering you on and believing in what you are doing.
    xo,
    Teri Lynne
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  4. Love this…you are such a blessing to my heart. Thank you for the way you have loved us all so well and used your gift of words to inspire. This has been such an amazing season, and I’m so thankful we could dream our dreams together…here’s to even more dreaming, friend! 🙂

  5. Bravo to you. I love reading how Holley has inspired so many to pursue their God-sized dream. It was a delight to make my way here through Jen’s SDG party. Many blessings to you.
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  6. I’m visiting from Soli Deo Gloria link-up. When I was younger, my God-sized dream was to marry a God-fearing man and have a big beautiful family. Now that I have that, my dreams are changing a bit as my children are growing older. The two youngest will be starting school in another year, and I’m starting to see that there will be life after children. With all of that in mind, God has been showing me a new dream, one that involves writing and maybe even speaking. Right now I’m a work in progress – just trying to be faithful to the gifts He’s given. 🙂 I enjoyed your post and really like the idea of thoughtfully considering our obstacles.
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  7. Now why is this bringing tears to my eyes? I wonder if this season ever changes–the one of time-stretched so thin? You have been a faithful dreamer and such a beautiful voice of encouragement to us all, Elizabeth. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your dear, dear voice.
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