When Spring Doesn’t Show

When Spring Doesn’t Show

As I sit here writing, on the second day of Spring, I’m cupping a large warm cup of coffee and wearing black and gray — leggings, tall suede boots, two tanks and a sweater. I don’t feel overdressed.

While the calendar may tell me it’s Spring as of yesterday, the thermometer marked 18.9 degrees this morning as I got the kids ready for school {see Instagram feed}. I woke to yet another covering of snow. Two days ago, the rain froze and pinged against our windows as it fell and caused a two-hour school delay. My 8-year-old daughter literally burst into tears Tuesday night when she saw the cold forecast for the first day of Spring.

How can it be so cold on the first day of Spring?

I try to explain that Spring is really just a date to mark, a date from which the weather should start to gradually warm. It’s certainly no guarantee.

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Last night, I couldn’t get warm. True, our indoor thermometer showed 62 degrees in the master bath as I readied for bed … not exactly a toasty temperature, but pretty typical for our house. But, instead of dealing with it, as I have all winter, my body decided it was done. No more sucking it up and shivering; I wanted to be warm, bonafide, cozy warm. So, I pulled on long PJ pants, a tank, and a long-sleeved top. I layered a hoodie on top of that and zipped it all the way up. I climbed into bed and pulled the thick comforter up to my nose. Still cold. I got out of bed and put slipper socks over my regular socks. Still cold. I put the hoodie up over my head. Still cold. I closed the bedroom door and cranked the space heater up to high. Still cold.

So, I thought of God, and how comforting it is when I connect to Him as a loving Father {rather than viewing Him as a distant almighty or judgmental God}. I asked Him to hold me in his arms, and I finally stopped shivering and fell asleep.

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This Winter in most of the East has been cold and long, from a purely meteorological standpoint. From a spiritual one, it’s been a heady combo of bleak and joyful for our family.  The pure joy I’ve had in blogging, following my God-sized Dreams here and here, and making meaningful connections through Holley Gerth’s God-sized Dream Team {the book launch team for her newly released book, You’re Made for a God-Sized Dream} have sustained me with a smile on my face many days.

Yet, some days, fear and misgiving come roaring in, threatening to overcome, often spurred by illness, bone-chilling cold, and exhausting days caring for three kids {oftentimes with a husband who’s out of town or totally snowed under by work responsibilities}. We are also walking through the unknown with our second child, who was diagnosed this fall with an autoimmune disease {which I write about here}. We’ve been blessed to see remission of most of her symptoms, but we’ve also experienced some of the not-so-pleasant side effects of daily medication. We’ve gotten all too familiar with the inside of Children’s Hospital, where we go for a monthly overnight, so our daughter can receive IV treatments.

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We can’t know the future, which with autoimmune disease, can go one of three ways: 1. Total remission 2. Remission with flare-ups 3. Chronic with continual medication needed. We are learning to walk with that uncertainty, in prayer and trust — and, often, honestly, just relegating it to the back of our minds for now.

That’s our Winter. It’s slowed us down. It’s made us seek the warmth and comfort of our Father’s arms.

It’s made us doubly appreciate the small things, like the sunshine {when it decides to show}, the sound of our daughter’s laughter more often than her tears {now that she feels so much better}, and the time we spend with family and friends.

We’ve found the joy that floods in when we count our blessings, rather than enumerate our wounds. <—Tweet This!  We’re learning to praise our God, Winter and Summer alike.

 Where’s your heart today? Winter or Spring?

The day is yours, and yours also the night;
you established the sun and moon.
 It was you who set all the boundaries of the earth;
you made both summer and winter.

Psalm 74: 16-17



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  1. Beth, I’m running out of new things to say to you about how wonderful your thoughts/words are:) When I say how much I like this, please know how MUCH I mean it. Your writing seems to get more layered, more confident, more like a conversation with you, and I love it all:)
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  2. I’m ready for spring too! And so is my girl, who talked again this morning about how it’s too cold for spring. I hope your spring, literally and figuratively, comes soon.
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  3. Elizabeth,
    reading this felt like you were seeing my soul. It’s been a long, hard, winter and when I’m weary, I’m wishing I’d had the wisdom to ask God to warm me instead of shivering in the cold. I do know that joy, just like Spring, is coming, and for that, I shout hallelujah!
    We always have a reason to praise the Lord. Thanks for the reminder, sweet sister.
    Peace and good to you.
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  4. Robin Meyers :

    How wonderful to have fallen asleep in prayer. I find when I too am weary and I turn it over to God, especially when I lay in bed at night, I quickly find peace, and sleep… May warmth and sunshine envelope your whole family very soon.

  5. I’m feeling like I am in the winter of my blogging these days. I am very anxious for some warmer weather, like it might help clear the cobwebs of my mind and help me want to write again. My “God-sized Dreams” have just confused me this season, but I am so thankful for the team walking me through it!! So glad I have a few more months to get it together! 🙂
    thank you for your words!
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  6. I am sorry you’ve been walking through difficult times. You are so dear, please message or email anytime you’d like me to pray! : ) And I can’t believe I somehow missed a Click to Tweet! I will fix that tomorrrow! Blame it on spring break this week…we’re all out of our normal routine around here.

    If it helps any, it’s not 18 degrees in North Florida, but it is rainy, stormy and a little chilly (ok, so 60 is chilly to us!). : )
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  7. Lovely, Elizabeth. I am missing spring here too. But the joy of the Resurrection is warming me from the inside out this Holy Week.
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